butterflies in my belly

Butterflies as a wallpaper (source: Wikimedia)

I’ve published several books and been accepted for many anthologies by other publishers, but I’m still extremely nervous. Today, I submitted a short story (although short is relative, it’s nearly 17K words long) to one of the biggest ongoing writing competitions in the US, and I feel like hiding in a very small space.

Isn’t it weird that I still feel like this despite the many times I’ve published/been published? Every time I put my writing out there, I begin to worry. Will people like it? Will there be readers? Is the story good enough? What if I overlooked anything, missed anything? When I began this journey, I thought the nervousness would get less the more books I have “out there”. But that’s not been the case. Every book worries me again (although I hardly ever tell anyone).

What about you? What worries you? Are you comfortable being in the spotlight?
Tell me.



About Cat-Gerlach

I am an author and a triple mum. I am living in Northern Germany with my family and my dog.

Posted on May 11, 2013, in about writing, Authors - Katharina Gerlach. Bookmark the permalink. 4 Comments.

  1. Isn’t it funny how the butterflies never go away? I think it’s a sign that we’re growing as writers and as people, but it never gets easier, I suppose. I’ve learned to recognize that little twist of fear as a sign that I need to jump and take a chance. 🙂

    Good luck in the competition! I’ll be waiting to hear the good news!

  2. Great good luck. I don’t know if I really feel butterflies except around women! THAT never went away- and getting married was like yelling “safe!”
    It’s really great when you expect bad news and can forget about it while you’re waiting. I had clean forgotten about submitting to Harper Voyager last year and finally got the nice standard emails today. Relatively little pain! Onward.

    • Wow. They must have take you into round two since they mailed the failures right away in October/November last year. Some friends of mine had submitted. As far as I know, roughly 800 manuscripts made it into the current round.

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